“Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.” Luke 22:42
Recently I’ve had several opportunities to reflect on this passage and what it’s meant in my life.
I behaved just like Jonah. About five years ago, God sent me to a proverbial Ninevah when I unexpectedly found myself pregnant. This happened a few days after I arranged to go to Costa Rica for my student teaching. He wanted me to learn to be a wife and mother, but I was afraid, so I ignored Him as best I could. I became a wife and mother, but I was still determined to teach, to work outside the home. My plans would not be derailed.
The Lord humored me for a while. I graduated, got my credential in two states, and secured a teaching position, just like I wanted. But after one year of teaching (which was not all I thought it would be), I became a stay-at-home-mom, and to say that it was a struggle for me was an understatement.
I had it all figured out. Surely God didn’t send me to college so that I could sit at home all day, every day, with the kids. He was going to use me for more noble work in the world. But, I didn’t understand His purpose, His will, for wives and mothers, for me.
I had continued to go on my own way, ignoring His calling in my life. I chose to believe that I knew what was best for me in my life. But God is sovereign and God is good. He knew that I needed to be redirected back to Him, so He shut every door until He was all I had. I had lost sight of being the creation and not the creator.
Are you listening to God? What is he calling you to do with your life?