I am very okay at a lot of things. But I am not, and never have been, the best at anything.
I’ve never been the prettiest, smartest, artsiest, friendliest, fittest… you name it. I can always name someone I know who is better at (insert appropriate phrase here) than I am.
Up until recently, I’ve always seen this as a problem. Do I have too many interests? Am I a jack of all trades and master of none? (Is that really a bad thing?) Am I wasting away my gifts by not specializing in one?
It wasn’t until I laid awake the other night wondering about my problem that I realized that my desire to hone in on one expertise and become the master of it was largely driven by pride & culture rather than calling. God doesn’t give the same gifts to his people, and some people have more focused gifts than others (Ephesians 4:7). And that is okay. I can still use whatever gifts I’ve been given, whatever platform I’ve been given, to God’s glory–and it doesn’t need to just be focused on one thing. Of course, I want to strive to be better in all of my endeavors, but I don’t need to pursue only one interest if that is not where I’ve been called.
As that realization moved down into my heart, I felt so at peace. I don’t need to start an Etsy shop with my hand-lettered creations. I don’t need to have thousands of followers on my social media accounts. I don’t need to be known by people in Christian subculture. Heck, I don’t need to be a Yelp Elite reviewer. I can just be me, a woman who loves Jesus, loves my family, loves my church, loves teaching Pure Barre, and loves #pencilligraphy.